The First and Only Encounter

During one of our phone call conversations, he reminded me of the first and only encounter we had before this weird thing started. And it's just fun to think I can relate to his way of thinking sometimes.

So here's what happened...

It was summer after our graduation. I was literally having a bad hair day because of the unplanned haircut which created a disastrous bangs. I look horrible! Promise! I even ditched my afternoon review classes because I don't want to expose my ugly face with my bad hair day to everyone.

That same afternoon, I went to SM Supermarket to restock my grocery supplies. Near the entrance to the groceries section, I saw a familiar structure. I was not even sure because  he was not facing at me. He was wearing a rich red shirt and cap and blue jeans. He was with a woman. We walked to different lanes until I can see them no more.


It seemed like it was just an ordinary encounter lang naman. Nothing so special. But on my mind, I was thinking na, nandito pala siya? akala ko nasa Japan siya.


And I continued on what I was doing and there were times when I see them at different lanes. Siyempre, I was curious that time how he really looked like. So I keep on glancing from time to time. I tried my best na hindi magpahalata but then he confirmed na he sensed daw that I was looking because he was secretly glancing at me through his peripheral vision din. Oh diba? Mejo fair lang ang nangyari.


Until I reached the cashier counter to pay for the items and it happened na dun din punta nila. All those times I was hoping na sana he won't notice me because I was not in my prettiest that day or maybe he can notice me but please wag niyang ma-notice yung ugly hair ko. (Damn that bakla na naggupit ng hair ko!)


Until that time nakita niya talaga ako...


He looked at me...na parang na-shock siya na parang ewan na parang napa-atras siya. Deym! I blame the hair. Muntik na akong hindi makilala ng high school crush ko dahil sa sabog na hair ko. Sabi iya, "Ui..."


Sabi ko lang din, "Ui..."


Yun...wala naman akong masabi. I just noticed na parang iba na yung dating niya compared to high school days. He said, "Musta na?"


And hindi ako nakasagot. Hindi ko na maalala. Parang iba yung lipad ng isip ko that time. Haha! Basta yun umalis na ako sabay tango.


Kilig na ewan. Gwapo niya pala. Kasi honestly, it was the first time na nagkatitigan kami ever. And I guess it was also the first time na makita ko siya na standing on his own feet and not riding on a motorcycle. Grabe. Ganun ko siya ka hindi kilala.


And so yun. I couldn't contain my excitement. I posted a prettier photo of me (for that day)on Instagram with the caption "Saw my hs crush kanina sa SM and almost hindi niya ako na-recognize because of my sabog na hair."


And that's just it.


Nothing followed. It was just a simple memory na tumatak sa isip ko.


And that was our first and only encounter before us turned into us.


Good luck na lang sa aming magiging first encounter as boyfriend and girlfriend!

How It Really Started

I was on the process of trying to figure out how to go on and live my life away from my so-called "back-up husband" when things turned a little bit more immature and so-not-me events started to happen. I'm not so proud of it but this deserves to be heard. Haha.

After the last date with my so-called "back-up husband", the childish and carefree side of me started to reemerge.

I go out more than usual. I text and chat a lot. I interact with people that I never gave time before. Somehow I enjoyed the feeling of not being committed to anyone but myself and my happiness. I started meeting people and let myself experience how it felt like to become a teenage always-on-the-go kind of girl again.

The truth is...I was seriously sad with the fact that my first epic love, my back-up husband, the one and only Mr. 60 can't give me the kind of love that I was craving to feel...I was waiting for that time for him to pull up his courage and make me feel like I'm worth fighting for. But it never happened.

It was actually a matter of how long I can wait for him to have that courage because he said it will come...but the other side of me was saying or you can wait in vain.

LOVE is out of the question. I'm sure we love each other very much. But it's just unfair to imprison myself in that kind of situation.

It's true that I was most of the time playing and having fun feeling young and carefree with some people that I don't wanna give the names.

And Aki happened to be one of them. He's just one of those guys who dared to chat me during my super available moment. He's simply one of them.

To me (that time), he's just another guy from my hometown who happened to be one of the bad boys.

But due to my excess time, I replied to his messages.

And the conversation went like this...(although I can't remember the exact lines...)

Aki: Kumusta naman ka dai?

Hara: Okay lang man. Ikaw dong?

Aki: Buhi pa man. Haha

(And then I don't know what to say...then I remembered a photo of him holding a baby...)

Hara: May anak na jud ka?

Aki: Wala oi. Atik atik lang toh...

And the rest was part of the history.

I was surprised that I enjoyed chatting with him.

Normal lang naman ang topics namn. Hanggang sa nag-level up. Napunta sa plano na magkita sa Makati. But actually, my plan of going to Makati the next year was supposed to meet Mr. 60. Haha. Kaloka! Until he asked for my number. He was a Smart subscriber and I was Sun Subscriber. But then he switched to Sun.

We talked everyday. I was happy. Seriously happy. I don't understand how I feel at those moments. All I know was that I was happy. It's funny to use the word love way too early...and it may seem exaggerated but that time, I think I was falling in love. It took me less that a week to fall in love with the guy. What the hell!

I haven't even met him or talk to him in person. Haha.

But on my part, I just grabbed the opportunity to feel kilig kilig again. Just for fun. But hours passed like months and days passed like years. It's as if we've been together for a long time already.

It was weird. So weird and so unexpected and so unreal.

There are tons of reasons not to love him...but I'm loving him anyway.

HAHA.

From "I don't care" to "You're all I care."

The truth is...I do not know where to start our story.

Everything happened so fast. The timing seemed so unreal. With just a very limited amount of time, I feel in love with a stranger that I haven't even seen or touched.

But technically, I've known this stranger for quite a long time. I can't remember when or where...it seemed like it's automatic that everyone knows his name.

"Aki..."

I heard his name mostly coupled with negative events and bad feedbacks. But that's that. The only information I was certain about him was the fact that he loves motorcycles and he dated one of my girl crush during high school.

I believe it's foolish for someone to say he's not attractive.

I was not an exception.

But never did I pay attention to this young man during high school because I admit (though I'm not proud of it) that I am childish and judgmental. I was not interested with guys of his kind. Those time, I was very in love with his friend that I never appreciated his existence.

I just find it so surprising and surreal for me to feel this way. Cupid really has his way of giving me huge surprises.

From "I don't care." to "You're all I care."

For the following posts, I'll try to share as many as I can although I do not know what I'm gonna share since I haven't even seen him.